6.21.2007

I heart NY 04/06 - 06/07

The year went by fast...

This has been the theme of my day, suddenly everything just seems to be ending. I have been living at the big apple for quite a while now. I made it for a year! Well atleast a full school year minus my Christmas break... but then again I consider this an achievement. Who wouldve thought I would survive... this long? Well come to think of it I do know why, it was because of the children.

Our classes formally ended today, atleast my days with the children. It was a bittersweet goodbye as we all celebrated together with the parents, my Rainbow Room Community. It was very very comforting to be exchanging nice, nice words of the year that was. It was an opportunity for me to be able to work with such lovely children and the best of parents and families! It broke my heart that they all had to go. I know I will be crying tomorrow when I return the classroom (to clean up) minus the children. It will be very very sad and lonely. It was very comforting to get my last hugs and kisses from my kids. I miss them all already! And this is just my first year... how many more of this should I go through?

I have always, always hated goodbyes. Who loves them anyway right? For someone who seems to be living a nomadic life lately, I should have been used to this already. Not! The last-minute packing... I'm an expert already! The shopping rush for going away gifts or pasalubongs... I've mastered it! The check-in and airport procedures... gotten used to it! But the leaving, I just don't think I could live with that.

Will Smith's voice from Pursuit of Happiness has been following me all day now... This part of my life is called living, leaving...

Someone once sung, goodbyes are not forever... for sure! NYC Shopping, need I say more?

photo aka: My very photogenic snapshot of one of NY's icon while onboard the Hudson River cruise. I'll see you liberty!

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6.06.2007

Nephew # 13

Just recently I posted about Kuya Carlo's wedding. My infamous overprotective kuya! And now... ta-da!!!

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Here comes baby Andrew Curtis Guevarra. Our eldest kuya now has the youngest apo/pamangkin in the family. Well atleast with Barangay Guevarra.

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On June 3, morning time here and night time there, my text-forwarding family started to monitor Kuya Carlo's and Ate Rette's trip to the hospital. Now, with a family as big as ours, a delivery is just not that scary anymore. Well it's nothing new and it's always that one good trip to the hospital... so we were relaxed. On the other hand, I think Kuya was (as always) being obessessively compulsively exaggerating about everything. But! We don't blame him. It's the first baby. As for us, well we probably just believed that baby Curtis will wait for lola.

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Now with lola still on vaca (lagot ka mommy!), we now convince ourselves he's just as cute in the picture. Ang cuuuuuttteee cutteeee!!! With the proud dad's gazillion pictures with matching narrative captioning, I just can't decide yet which is my fave. I CANT WAIT TO SEE THE BABY.

Kuya texted me this morning, 4pm their time so thank you very much for waking me up with a vibrating pillow. And with a cranky but informative exchange of text messages, eto lang nasagot ko in the end... OO NA NGA, UUWI NA KO!

photo aka: Still bragging about family

6.04.2007

Ang Matalinhagang Combo na Maroon 5

Had spare time (like always!) to listen intently to the new Maroon 5 album. Hands down... ish soo good! It's a rollercoaster ride to a relationship drama... or maybe just my own dramas?

Basta... most of the songs I feel like hitting my head, no make that BANG my head on the wall. Sobrang patama naman! Aray. As in tumatagos!

Can't really decide yet which is my fave, I thought their latest release was really a good one. But nope! There's even better...a lot more better! Aray, naririnig ko ule... masakit talaga!

Here's one:

*I really dont want to attract negative vibes with this. Title na title palang ansama na. Parang soo pessimistic and I know it's too early for that! So not me... Pero ba't ganon.*

Nothing Lasts Forever

It is so easy to see
Dysfunction between you and me
We must free up these tired souls
Before the sadness kills us both

I tried and tried to let you know
I love you but I'm letting go
It may not last but I don't know
Just don't know

If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

A bed that's warm with memories
Can heal us temporarily
The misbehaving only makes
The ditch between us so damn deep

Built a wall around my heart
I’ll never let it fall apart
But strangely I wish secretly
It would fall down while I'm asleep
[Nothing Lasts Forever lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

If you don't know
Then you can't care
And you show up
But you're not there
But I'm waiting
And you want to
Still afraid that I will desert you, babe

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

Tough we have not hit the ground
It doesn't mean we're not still falling,
Oh I want so bad to pick you up
But you're still too reluctant to accept my help
What a shame, I hope you find somewhere to place the blame
But until then the fact remains

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes you so hard to stay
Nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way

Isa lang naiisip ko...Mismo.


photo aka: dito na lang muna ko makikipagrelasyon.

Other tracks: BACK AT YOUR DOOR, WON'T GO HOME WITHOUT YOU, NOT FALLING APART, INFATUATION, BETTER THAT WE BREAK... san ka pa? titles pa lang ata nasasaktan na ko eh.

6.03.2007

Paminsan-minsan meron pa din namang mas mura sa P1.

Ang mga araw na lumipas ay sadyang napakabigat para saken... marahil alam mo kung bakit, marahil hindi. Ngunit ang importante don ay sinusubukan ko at pinipilit... ng sobra sobra... na makakalimot at wag nang isipin pa ang malulungkot...

Kaya eto na lang ang isipin naten:

1. Ang mayakap ko ang tatay ko ule... kahit sa panaginip lang. basta ung feeling na un.
2. Ang makasama ang pamilya ko tuwing pasko, bagong taon, at kung ano ano pang okasyon.
3. Ang kiligin... muli.
4. Ang maaliw dahil sa isang tao o dahil sa isang pangako na may taong padating o dadating.
5. Ang makatanggap ng tawag galing sa aking mga pamangkin para lang malaman ko na naalala pa nila ako.
6. Ang feeling na may inaabang abangan ka pa ding tawag o text o im.
7. Ang malaman na sa tuwing nagpupunta ang mga pamangkin ko sa bahay tuwing linggo ay tinatanong pa din nila kung nasan ako.
8. Ang mangkiliti ng bata at mapatawa sila ng todo todo.
9. Ang makapagpatulog ng bata... lalo na ang isang sanggol.
10. Ang makapagpatahan ng umiiyak na bata.
11. Ang makitang bigla na lang magliliwanag ang mukha ng isang bata dahil may natutunan galing sayo.... light bulb thought kumbaga.
12. Ang magkakuha ng kiss n hug galing sa aking mga estudyante araw-araw.
13. Ang malaman na importante ka at hinahanap-hanap pa din... sa buhay ng mga musmos kong estudyante.
14. Ang makabuos ng isang bote ng jose cuervo at mapabagsak sa dulo.
15. Ang malasing at wala nang malay pagkatapos.
16. Ang may malasing o mapatumba ng unang unang beses... lalo na ung sumusuka pa.
17. Ang makatae ng maluwag pagkatapos pigil-pigilin ito ng buong araw na nasa labasan.
18. Ang mahaching... with feelings.
19. Ang mautot nang maluwag sa yo at sa mga tao sa paligid mo.
20. Ang makatulog matapos ang napahabang araw... sa sarili mong kama sa loob ng iyong kwarto.
21. Ang kumain ng ice cream sa napakainit na araw o ang kumain ng ice cream araw-araw.
22. Ang kumain ng lusaw na chocolate.
23. Ang magkaron ng kasama na kumain ng kumain ng walang pakialam sa carbs, calories, at kung ano ano pa.
24. Ang tumawa ng todo todo tos biglang pipigilin at kailangan maging magseryosong mukha... at gagawin ito madalas kasama ang isang malaking grupo ng mga kaibigan.
25. Ang mapasigaw ng AAAAHHHH sa shower na bigla na lang lumamig ang tubig.
26. Ang magbabad sa beach sa ilalim ng napakainit na araw at pagkatapos ay sabay sabay kayong tatakbo sa tubig... at bigla na lang kayong may maririnig na fffsss na parang sabay sabay kayong tina-thaw.
27. Ang magbigay ng butchi na madume sa mga guro na paborito kayo.
28. Ang maglagay ng karatula sa labas ng bintana ng aming classroom para sa mga nagtitinda ng buko at ice cream.
29. Ang manuod ng sine na maingay kayong isang buong row kakasigaw o kakatawa.
30. Ang maglagay ng bubblegum sa kotse ng kaaway ng kaibigan ko.
31. Ang gumamit ng supot sa telopono at sabihing choppy ka at sabay bagsak.
32. Ang magtago sa isang taong kinaasaran mo.
33. Ang manlait ng mga tao na dumadaan sa paningin namin.
34. Ang hindi pag-inom ng inumin na ipinapadala sa table namin ng aking mga kaibigan tapos ay sabay sabay na pagkikilatis sa nagpadala nito at sabay alis. tse!
35. Ang tumawa lang ng buong maghapon... ng malakas.
36. Ang magkwentuhan ng sabay sabay at nagsisigawan kahit wala naman sa lugar na maingay.
37. Ang magcut at manuod ng sine. o kaya umuwi na lang.
38. Ang magdrop ng isang subject at i encash ang refund.
39. Ang maangas na sumakay sa isang family use na jeep at mapahiya pagkatapos.
40. Ang gumimik ng naka pangtulog.
41. Ang maligo... SA ULAN.
42. Ang magkagusto ng todo todo sa isang tao na bandang huli ay mapagsasawaan mo din.
43. Ang humirit, makahirit, at makarinig ng magandang hirit!
44. Ang manuod ng basketball... lalo na kung kilala mo pa ang mga naglalaro at talagang napapasigaw ka pa sa excitement.
45. Ang matulog ng lasing na lasing.

I wish he's forever 7,

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If only all boys could be just like him, then we wouldn't have to look for men, boys wouldve been enough!

Rainer Raphael Leoncio is the first nephew in the family. The eldest boy and therefore! the most kulit, the roughest, the silliest, and the one who got into video games so early!

I can't imagine this nephew of mine growing up cos a) that would just mean I am darn old already, b) he might not be that pa-cute anymore and! c) he might not like playing the cutesy patootsy part anymore!

While I was gone his mom would constantly tell me stories about how he randomly remembers me... and then in the end, the tear-jerker Q and statement: "When is tita just going home? Miss ko na siya eh!"

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He is my nephew who constantly asks in the most innocent way if: a) I'm going back to the US, b) Why do I have to go back to the US; and c) When am i going back to the US. And he was asking me these in between theme parks and sight seeing trips while we were on vaca!

When I made it back here and I was able to talk to him on the phone---
Rain: Tita just? Where are you?
Me: (Kiddingly, jokingly, wishful thinkingly) I'm on the plane... on my way home!
Rain: Really?! He dint even wait for me to answer...
and then he dropped the phone run to his mom screaming, "Mommy! Tita just is going home she said she's on the plane now! She will be here soon!"

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I think they say memories are important because they are lasting snapshots on our minds of the silly events that we want to forever cherish and look back at... Well just in case something happens to me and my memories, here's a little definite reminder that I can look back at... to remind me of how loved I am... specially back at home!